The power of history

How do you know when it’s reached the point of no return?
Could it be the endless silence of trying to avoid issues
the quick glimpses trying to look avoiding eye contact
maybe it’s the thought of her that brings a frown to your face and makes your teeth automatically clasp.
What about the dull pain in your heart and strangely the heating of your ears in the heart of winter.

Are all these emotions the final straw or is it just because of the circumstances right now.
Somehow this feels like symptoms of cold weather but will it pass like the flu or is it terminal this time.
Just closing my eyes right now and trying to rationalize things I have just realized how powerful the mind is, as u can but by just thinking back take your body into a state of quiver due to anger.

In all the despair however there is time for a little chuckle as ironically “Take a bow” of Rihanna will be playing this minute.
Do you way the good times against the bad.
Does one highlight one brilliant moment that brought the biggest smile to my face and was so fulfilling outweigh a tragic moment.

So many questions and so many factors but one thing is that life changing decisions are hard and most people would rather stick with the known no matter how bad than the unknown. So where do I stand and what about you?