Smile

When I grow up wanna be a star!!! The Pussy Cat Dolls lyrics come to mind. Perhaps it is foolish old age catching up or perhaps it is that silly feeling you get when someone tickles your nose or it could be that I just turned 25 and had all the time in the world to contemplate my life.

To be honest I do not regret one day of my short life (Ok maybe there was that one day I got too drunk and too stupid) but I really do not regret a thing. I have loved and I have been loved, I have been silly and I have seen so much silliness. Most of all, I have lived everyday as if it were my last. I have created friendships and even long lasting relationships I never thought were possible. I am grateful for everyday that I wake up and there is either sunshine or rain outside. I realized the other day just how lucky I am and how unique and special life is. I know, I am sounding extremely sentimental. And I know that it has a lot to do with me feeling like I am getting old but not feeling a day older than 18(18 till I die)

I sat back today and reminisced on my wild days gone by. If only my mother new where I was on particular days. Sy sal die you know what af my you know what slaan! But those were the days now ne! No worries of a bond or bills, insurance or anything. You were easy, relaxed and only had to spien for a gwaai or the six packs for the houza. Now you’re grown but I don’t see the need to make the stresses of new responsibilities get you down. You can still take care of the bills and be care free. All you have to do is take time out each day to be thankful, enjoy the rain once in a while, or walk bare feet in the street, have ice cream on a hot day, you know so hot that the ice cream drips all over your hand making it so sticky you know the bees are going to be after you. There are so many things you can do to just enjoy life to the fullest and that is what I am trying now in 2009. I am not taking note of anyone else around me, the super stars in the making, the up and coming accountants… We can’t all be famous, we need call centre agents and clerks right? J Right!!!! So I take pride in me and my abilities but at the same time I am concentrating on putting a smile on my face and a spring in my step. Which sounds out dated but sometimes you just have to do it for you? Not for anyone else but yourself because at the end of the day, you are what is important to you. I didn’t realize that until…. Well, until I realized it. We forget what is important and concentrate on what is not. We bother about the people who don’t really care about you, when you should be caring about the ones who care about you. So take time not to only smile but to put a smile on someone’s face even though they would never do the same for you.

It will put one on your face to. Make people feel the way you would like to feel. Live a little, love a little and be yourself no matter what. It is hopeless trying to change because it feels just too damn good to be yourself. I will leave you with this and hope that this month, never mind the year is filled with smiles. Many golden smiles, new friendships and a deeper understanding of oneself.

Don’t call it a mistake, call it an education.
– By Thomas Edison