Reason why i am still thinking

On the way, after a bad day
Heading to the only place
Where I ((should)) stay.
Nothing but fights all the day-night and the night-day
People usually say our sweet home – HEY
But let me say nasty shelter of ‘MAY’
Please don’t stay.

A favorite song plays on the radio
Couldn’t stop my tears from dropping down all the miles I drove
Hitting the studio

The first lyric starts, deeply Killing me inside.
Reminding me with every conversations we had
So many things I missed since you left me back
Felt as we lost in the middle of the band

It’s been a while. A year of losing your shadow is enough
What else I did in my life to be rough.
Except not stop loving you Bra-doe..! I can’t bluff

I remember every time I recall all the memories in my head
Like I am living the same moments over in mysteries I said
Without knowing why should I say goodbye
And let you go away in front of my eye
Baby this is the core of my all miseries
Baby this is why?

Baby reason why I am ((still)) keeping myself of thinking
I couldn’t stop loving you at all
Reason why I am holding myself back in all
bringing you in the middle of oh oh all
Coz you are meant to me. And never be for someone else but only me.
But you first must to listen at me. How this would turn into apart, situation misery
Oh, baby you must to see.
Must to listen at me.

This reason why I am thinking
I should not let you go away
Yah, I am insisting
Perhaps, mistakenly thinking
Of you continuously
Possibly my remedy
Baby the reason is why ?
I am ((still)) keeping myself of thinking
I swear you should‘ve seen me
Before you dare and dumped me
You walked away from me
Before showing a love that you never knew about me
Oh, baby you must see.
Must to listen at me

Dedicated to NJM… 🙁