Silly

They say when you are in love you go a little mad – they say.

He said that thing a few nights ago – the thing I always tell boys when I have fallen for them. Hard. That thing that sounds like a disclaimer – something along the lines of – please if you have a change of heart, tell me.

I use to do that – ask the other to be honest and just level with me when they hearts or minds change. When it comes to the crunch they never do. Nor do I. I cant actually tell the dude – hey buddy I just dont love you no more. So I usually get on my worst behaviour and hope the other has the courage to do what I fear most. Walk.

Walking to towards something good is just as hard as walking away from something bad. Its worse when you cant really put your finger on the bad – or the reason why it feels so good for that matter. Perhaps love is the thing we really cant describe and we use this word when no other can measure up to a feeling or lack of the same undescribable feeling.

If this makes any kind of sense you are probably a girl, like me, trying to figure this shit out. Hoping to hell that this time – I will be an adult about it.