Broken Hearted Part1

You came at a time when life wanted to end, yet you leave and life wants to end. Because you departure from my heart is just too much for me to bear.

We belong together like pieces of a puzzle, yet we somehow have forgotten how to fit together. Our love is boundless and the emotions we share are endless, yet we cannot compromise when it comes to the fatuous things in our lives. We wrangle about the colour of the sky, the makeup of the earth and the silence of the air. Yet, we do not reach an agreement on these matters because life seems to grab us by the tail and swing us around in circles.

You touched my heart and my soul and now you leave me void, empty and confused. I would curse the day you walked into my life if you didn’t bring so much light. Was this all just a part of my imagination or was this a bona fide emotion. You turned me inside out, upside down; you had my feelings in knots. Why does it then feel so unpalatable? I want to cry out to the world that this man, oh, this man has made me feel. Yet, all I feel now is regret and anger. Regret that we could not be anger because you are now just a distant memory. How could you not feel this, how could you not see this burning, this need this bottomless pit of amorousness? Is it that I was not what you were looking for? Perhaps, maybe I am just not what you need and it pains me even more to even think these thoughts because in my foolish, childish mind I swear, it felt so real. I sit and wonder what this all means. Words fail me as I wonder, ponder, try to make it feel better. But it seems to make this feeling of affliction that much more real.

These emotions I need to get out before they smoother me to death because it feels like the death of my heart and I am going to its funeral. I need to get it all out but I am failing at putting words together, sentences that make sense, emotions that don’t make me sound like a raging fool. God make it go away? Let it end and let my heart beat once more. I want You to bring back my smile, my heart, my love. Bring back my sun… Let it be…

I am broken hearted and emotional… will it ever go away?