My Goodbye…

Hi

How are you doing? It has been such a long time since we met, twelve years to be exact.

You were my better have. I can still remember how we discovered, explored and experienced everything together.

We were inseparable; I miss those days. With you by my side I could face anything, do anything and just be me. I felt so comfortable with, I am actually shedding a few tears as I remember those wonderful years.

But I can’t forget that day that you just left me. You left so suddenly I could not even say goodbye, my dreadful farewell. Its no where written that we had to part, but you left. You left me all alone on my own, You left me! How could you? I remember waking up one day and feeling all empty, never crossed my mind that you would be gone, justified this emptiness as “One of those days”. I searched for you all day, but you were no where to be found. People noticed the change in me, but I could not tell them; hoping that you would return soon, but you never did.

I met you recently, but couldn’t reach out; “so close and yet so far”. I had so much pain, anger towards you, all my emotions came all at once.

But as crazy as it sounds I am no longer angry with you. I guess I needed that time away from you, to see the other side of me, how I would cope without you. As hard as it was, I made it, I am okay, I came out much stronger. My bad days are no longer that bad.

I learned to deal with things much differently. Being without has changed me alot. I am no longer that Me, I am a bit more than that and I believe by the Grace of the Almighty that I will be greater than that.

Thank you for all those wonderful memories that we had I will always cherish them

I guess what I am actually saying is; My goodbye to you. I have realized that I can no longer hold on to the past and wishing for the past. It’s time for me to move on.

I would like to leave you with this quote;

“To live in this world, you must be able to do 3 things; to love what is mortal, to hold it against your bones knowing that your own life depends on it & when the time comes to let it go, let it go” Mary Oliver.

You will never be forgotten.

I love you and I will always.